Wednesday, August 16, 2006
After what seems like forever, i finally watched a movie! haha can't even remember what i last watched...walk the line?! nah there must have been something else after that but i can't rem what. anyway, that's besides the point. haha what is, is that i watched Click last nite at the old Cathay with Lav :)Wasn't as great a show as everyone else said it was but it did make me think and realize that I need to prioritize my family and stop taking them for granted. heh i'd admit to crying at the part where he flashed back to the last time he saw his dad before he died and how he ignored him coz i've done that before..like the whole i'mtoobusynowican'ttalktoyou thing. and i know that i clam up when i'm stressed out and don't communicate much at all and can be a grump when i'm under a lot of pressure and all this only shows to my family. so while i'm more careful to not do it any more, i occasionally lapse into that and i wanna be even more conscious of it now and not do it anymore coz it sucks. it's horrible. or rather, i am.Then i realized too how blessed i am to have the father that i do. He's always put the family first, never kept late nights or brought home work as far as possible, always been available when i needed him to be, can't remember him ever saying things like "go away/not now, i'm too busy" or anything like that and he's always told me that he loves me and is proud of me and he shows it. so what more could i possibly ask for right? I really should be more grateful than i am! heh i'm beyond blessed for a father who prays for me all the time, who puts it down in his monthly planner when we're suppose to do our father-daughter dates, who wakes up ridiculously early to send me to Fairfield when i'm teaching and who buys me strawberries all the time coz he knows i like them. haha..so while i've spent much of the last week being pissed at how he's anal about things like what time i come home and all, i've been blind to all this other stuff for so long.
