Sunday, September 03, 2006
i love my cg! haha i always feel young when i'm with them. like somehow, secondary school and jc memories seem so so fresh when i'm talking to them. haha i'll have these flashbacks of how we used to nick mr loh's pointer hand when his back was turned in class, how we used to blow bubbles along the corridoor then scuttle back in when mr heng was round the corner, how i used to write endless letters to various friends then slip them thru the window or pass them to someone to pass to someone (and i still have them all by the way! hahaha) and yah..just random little snippets of life when i was their age :)
well cg's been really small lately. today for example, there was only andy, nat, tammy and i today after service and i felt kinda bummed out. but at the same time, i cldn't have been happier that andy and tammy were there. (nat too of course! haha cldn't be more thankful for my faithful cg-ers!) eventually tho, tammy's fren - bernita, ian, and cindy came to join us so we almost doubled in number! heh and andy was literally surrounded by girls..which i really don't think he minded. grin.
but i guess for me, i'm learning to embrace and be content in each and every situation. when we were a huge cg, i felt really really worn and drained by the sheer number of people to shepherd and care for. so multiplying was an excellent idea. but with that, came a whole new host of challenges. but i guess really thru it all, i'm really so encouraged to see how God is working in and thru my cg members, past and present. and i enjoy spending time with them, not just talking abt random things, but pouring out into their lives, praying for them and with them, being their "mommy" once in awhile as i nag them abt things and all. and i'm realizing that as with community transformation which our church is gonna embark on, my cg should have no walls. sometimes, u go on meeting the needs of others outside ur cg simply coz u care. or rather, more importantly, coz God impresses it upon your heart to reach out to them and pour forth His love into their lives. and so as i surrender myself, my time, my work and all else to Him and rely on His strength to go on, things are really shaping up to be a whole new exciting, journey of faith indeed. and hence, once again, i learn to be dependent :)
and to my dear present and past cg members who may read this, thank u for coming each week, for being as committed as u know how, for being so much fun, for being willing to share, for being teachable, for being so so much fun, and for just being you. coz u add such flavor to cg and to my life :)
and and and, to those who've begun speaking chinese to me, like elynn and cindy and andy (who spends more time laughing at me than teaching me), thanks a bunch! i appreciate it! haha
