Tuesday, October 24, 2006
heh ok so ems was saying my font size is kinda puny...so i thought i'd post in font size "normal" as it's called to see its effect. which i think is funny in itself...haah thought they usually were in numbers. ok, nvm. anyway, let me know if this is better! haha but u see, there's a reason for posting in "small" - helps me save space. its like writing an essay and scrimping on margins! haha so that it doesn't seem excessively long when in fact it is. hehanyway, i'm glad that cheryl and ems have returned to the blogging scene! possibly the only two people i know who spend more time mulling over how to express what they wanna say coz they're perfectionists too! : )on another note, had supper with the boys last nite. was semi-impromptu coz farand n i planned to supper but then he was too tired so were gonna postpone it. but he missed his Creative which i was holding on to. so he met me on the way home from class as i was on the way home from tuition. but while waiting, justin stalker-ishly trailed me to bt batok mrt station and crept up on me. haha which of course i wasn't the least surprised abt coz its a justin thing to do. he got bored waiting for my bro at gombak coz he was late so he took the train up to where i was for the "pleasure of making a 30sec phone call" to see me look around for him as he was lingering somewhere. *rolls eyes* only justin bothers with things like that lah. mui, i tell u, the day u get married right, u will soooo regret all these things, esp. some of the other things u've done to the guys. *snigger*anyway, it was a strange supper session as justin and my bro spoke hush-hushly to each other and farand n i had our own conversation on the other side of the table. haha but eventually we moved on to the latest ministry decisions and movements...and well...i guess though i see the need to move to sats and am excited to embark on this new adventure, i also see the very real struggles some of the leaders will face. realized that juggling work/army AND studying AND cg AND family AND other accompanying ministry commitments is really something. and as we talked about some other seemingly unsolveable issues in the ministry, how hard these changes are gonna be, how we're growing beyond what we can cope with, how we're back to being short of leaders, how we're all massively stretched....i realized that we need to be praying like never before. there obviously are no easy solutions (except my good news baptist suggestion..heh) but we're all in the business of God's work. and just like how He's paved the way (heh no pun intended for the Pathmakers) every single time, i'm confident that He's in control this time too. so let's be praying, kairos! this ministry is His alone and everything we need He knows and will provide. but have we been asking? have we been unified in prayer? God's been exceedingly good in so many of our cgs, but i believe He wants to do so much more! Kingdom mentality as P.J. put it... : ) let's ask God for that so that we can begin seeing things from His perspective! am reminded once again of how we used to huddle in my bro's room to pray for God's direction of the ministry some 3-4 years ago...maybe it's time to do that once again....of course time doesn't permit...and i inwardly groan at the prospect of more time being asked for again...haha but God sees these struggles and i know He'll help us overcome them once we choose to come to Him in obedience and earnest desire to see His kingdom purposes accomplished in and thru our ministry and ourselves...i am struggling with writing this coz i sense it's gonna definitely be asking for even more of me/us than we feel able and willing to even give now and with the upcoming changes. but i'm gonna start praying. join me! :)(pressing the "publish post" button has never seemed harder. haha guess coz it's spelling a new commitment for me too which i didn't anticipate coming my way...guess tt's one possible downside of having thots consolidated only when i write/talk them out. eeks. ok so here goes.....)
