Thursday, October 26, 2006
i think i form attachments with animals way too quickly and easily.kor wanted crab for dinner so mommy asked my grandma, the master chef, to come cook up a storm...so early in the morning, they went to the market and came home with 3 basket-fulls or baskets-full (?) of crab. got home frm the gym and was gonna shower and i saw them sitting in the corner of the toilet staring at me. and it was way too discomforting and i just cldn't do it. i cldn't shower with 6-8 crabs staring at me lah. it's just too much invasion of my privacy. haha so mom took them out and placed them under the sink. said they had to be kept alive. ok so fine...got bored ard mid-afternoon and went to check on the crabbies and instantly their eyes started darting around and they started squiggling which got me doing the same so i left. (they're really ugly actually!) anyway....not long later...i heard chopping in the kitchen...and i didn't wanna think about it or go check it out coz i knew i wldn't be able to stomach the sight. (esp when ur gonna stomach them soon enough..heh)then it was dinner time. and 2 huge dishes of piping hot chilli crabs were on the dining table. so i tucked in...but it just felt kinda wrong. tried pushing the thot away but i kept feeling queasy and kinda wrong about it. felt just...weird. haha u know..eating things u had kinda gotten acquainted with? yeah so now i'm full n feel kinda sick (not coz i'm too full...but coz...yah...)reminds me of lizzy. haha think some of u vaguely remember lizzy right? was a baby lizard that grew to become a full-sized lizard and she co-habitated with me in my pgp room and wld faithfully stay up with me alllll those late nights i spent writing papers. heh fortunately there wasn't a sad, tragic ending to lizzy's life...i just moved out eventually and so we err...parted ways. heh.i really do feel sick. eek. i don't think i can see something alive one moment and eat it the next.....
