Friday, November 03, 2006
i am now fully convinced and more, that when i call upon God with all sincerity to reveal Himself, He does. (i've always known that He will, but sometimes, i'm only 99% certain when i tell my cg that whatever they ask, He will answer..but now i'm 199% sure!) when i tell Him that i want to love Him, have the same desires that He has, love as He does people who are hard to love because i don't know them, and do these things which are simply beyond my own human capacity to, He hears!! QT the last few days has been on the same topic but it hasn't really sunk in...(haha sometimes i almost am convinced that i'll keep being bombarded with the same topic till i learn and get what God's wants me to learn). And it's been kinda annoying coz i wished that it was more relevant. then i realized that it was! realized that i had been seeing things from my perspective and not His which was why it just didn't make much sense or seem very relevant to me. so today, i finally conceeded that i needed Him to change my perspective. and i became willing to do as He led...but i didn't know how He wanted me to go about it. so i asked that He'd show me how.and He did, and in the least expected of ways as well! after a loooong day in sch, mi li, cheryl, gerard, kenny, shu yi and i left school together. and coz we only left sch at like 730pm, we got stuck in the AYE jam. but it gave us the perfect opportunity to share in the car...and it was exactly what qt was about and in that one conversation, i got my direct answer about what God wants me to do. haha not going into details here but just had to share it coz i'm amazed!! and when God works something like that out in direct answer to an earnest prayer, u just can't keep silent! : ) and so tonite also marks the end of our field research for my advanced research module. i had so much fun that it almost didn't seem like work! haha i truly truly am thankful for my proj grp, for mi li who drives us to and fro sch and highpoint which are miles apart, for kenny who never fails to crack me up, for the conversations we've had in the car/over meals b4/after/during proj meetings, getting to know them as individuals instead of just proj mates, and how God has been so so awesome thru out. heh i think it's almost a miracle that advanced research has been my favourite module this sem and that i've enjoyed learning everything Dr Ng's taught! haha and this is despite the fact that it has been the heaviest module as well. heh oh well...ok....gotta work on the interview transcript for tmr's proj meeting.
