Wednesday, November 29, 2006
sometimes i wonder for all i study, how much of it will benefit the people who really need the helping hand, support, hope, and betterment of their situation?stayed at BK to study after meeting Li Yee and amber today and i had the window seat coz i liked the natural light that was streaming in. much more refreshing than the lib or coffeebean! anyway, incidentally, right outside from where i was sitting was the smoking zone and i saw these young poly kids smoking away and i could sooo tell they thought it was cool. but i looked at those girls who were so pretty and all and wondered if they'd one day regret it. then i saw moms and dads puffing with their little tods nearby and it got my really angry. i wanted to go over and smack them on their forehead and ask them what they were thinking! then later on, i saw this young mother with 2 boys..prob like 5 and 3 years old. and she was hanging out with these few punk-ish looking guys prob 17 yrs old or so. she probably was just slightly older than that. and she seemed totally nonchalent about her kids. instead, the guys, who'd u def not expect to be fond of kids, were their playmates. twirling them ard, showing them card tricks, entertaining them and all...and they boys seemed so much to enjoy the male attention. and later as they got up to leave, i saw that their mother was pregnant. and i wondered if she was married. natural question that came to mind i guess, since that's what my ism and thesis are on. but what really bugged me was that i was sitting in BK studying about social policy and planning, studying about family therapy...but i never felt further removed from reality. how will the people who could do with help and support know that it's available to them? will they ever receive it? how will these kids do? will they hear about Christ? how will they know that there's a God who loves them so? will i ever get to reach out and work with people who really could do with the support and help? but do they want it, i wonder? why do the images of what i observed for a mere 10 mins stay so much more clearly and longer than all the readings i've tried to force down my throat the last 8 days?
