declaration of dependence

Monday, January 29, 2007

i haven't had monday blues in a long time. mostly coz for the last 4-5 sems, i've steered clear of classes that are on monday or that start earlier than 9am. so i've never had school on monday. but there wasn't much of a choice about it this sem coz welfare econs was scheduled for monday morning from the start of the AY. so i headed to school today feeling rather bleah. possibly coz the last few moments on my bed last night before i fell off to sleep were spent worrying, and then telling myself not to worry, about my thesis as well as how the rest of the sem looked set to get a lot worse from here. after about half an hour of worrying and trying not to worry, i must have fallen asleep. got up 5.5 hrs later a grump.

but that has since changed and i've got a ton to be grateful for and so i'm posting it to remind myself and to tell others what a great God i have! :) ok let me tell you/me why. haha

so you see, i've been pretty worried about my LKY class..coz everyone's so old. and experienced. and wise. and foreign. but then, i had the first proper project meeting with my group on saturday and i learnt so much more about them and their country and poverty. some country-sensitive info that can't be blogged about, but essentially, hearing about how things are in other SEA countries was a real an eye-opener and it helped put things back in perspective for me.

then i spent the entire weekend trying to get readings done and get down to writing that 5000 word paper. but plans got foiled here and there...but overall, a pretty productive weekend. but despite that, i got really worried about how my thesis is coming along, or not. and how it's the end of jan and i have 2 months to interview, transcribe, code, analyze, write, write, and err, write. and how i haven't even interviewed a single person! (ok, this is not a new "worry" of mine obviously...but it comes back to eat at me now and then). but during the short break i took just before writing this, i bumped into the level coordinator and he talked me through some other possibilities and reminded me that it's merely an academic exercise and i could explore other ways of working things out. and that again helped me see things in a better perspective. he gave me a few new options and mils and i decided to pop by dr ngiam's office to run them by him. and surprise surprise, he was there! (ok, u've gotta understand this. dr ngiam's almost never around. but almost every single time we've gone aknocking with no appointment and whenever we felt like popping by, he's there! that to me, is really really one of God's blessings and wonderful acts of provision, i'm telling you coz most other people complain about never being able to get him). and he always welcomes us with open arms and spends hours (literally) talking to us about anything and everything. so everytime i go into his office and sink into his big arm chairs feeling worried and dismayed, once i sit down and talk to him, it all eases away. it's like talking to a shrink! haha but i'm reminded that it's God's way of telling me that He's provided me with the best ever supervisor who's gonna walk me thru this.

then i reluctantly trot back to the lib to do research..rather dismayed that most pple ard me are gone...then i bump into ade in the toilet and it turns out she's working alone. haha but not any more, coz she's with me now. grin.

so this has been a massively long post about various things. no time to slowly prune this post, but i guess thanksgiving just flows and shouldn't be tampered with. hahaa ok i'm just lazy. but really, God is so so good.

and eunice ends here :

- 5:57 PM