Wednesday, January 24, 2007
sometimes i feel like throwing in the towel. i thought the cycle had finally been broken. the cycle where you continuously go round and round with those almost predictable ups and downs spiritually. and i thought that finally we could move on. but just when i thought all was well, you prove me wrong. and it hurts and sometimes it makes me angry and impatient. then i'm stopped in my judgemental tracks when i'm reminded of what our Father's heart is like. He's always loving, always patient, always forgiving, and He always has His hands extended no matter how many times we walk away. and i realize that i'm no better. i fall away too. maybe i just conceal it better. and oh i'm in need of so much grace too...to walk right, to be set apart, and i guess the only difference between us, is that i need so much more grace to lead in love. thanks for reminding me that more than ever, i need His grace. you're special and i care about you, though i can be harsh.
