Thursday, March 22, 2007
so i was told by those who've gone through it before that thesis is a killer. i guess i always knew that but never really...believed it? haha or i chose not to or something. but i'm beginning to believe them. but i think they missed something out. thesis in itself, is not a killer. it's the several other deadlines around it PLUS thesis that kill.so i think the 5th person told me today that i've shrunk in size. which i don't mind that much haha. but it scares me a little too coz i've pretty much been eating and exercising the same as before. the only thing i've been doing differently is SITTING more in front of my laptop churning out page after page of one paper or another. how does that contribute significantly to weight loss? so i've decided that the stress is eating me up. haha what's probably more worrisome is that i've had more panadol these 5 days than i have like all of last year! i hardly eat panadol. maybe 2 a mth at the most. but in order to put away the fever or the throbbing headache or crams (which, yes, have mercilessly chosen to plague me all in one week, one after another), i've popped those pills and tried to sleep more. but despite clocking a luxurious 7-8 hours a nite this week, i still feel and look exhuasted so quickly each day it's nuts. what's happening to me?! haha i think my body's giving in to the stress. and it's not just the stress of work. i didn't know that planning holidays were stressful too! hahai keep telling myself it'll be over soon (the work i mean). but after meeting with my welfare econs group and my sup to go thru my draft, once again, the end seems so far. haha but i know it's not. in 2 wks it'll all be over. 2 weeks. 2 weeks. 2 weeks. oh, that makes 6. no, just 2 i mean.but God never fails to show up when i'm about to crumble from the tiredness and all to assure me that He's in control. kenny shared this with us b4 we started our proj meeting and it was exactly the same few verses that got sent to me today via this email thing i subscribe to. i never cease to be amazed at how God always knows when i need Him."God is our refuge and strength,
always ready to help in times of trouble.
So we will not fear when earthquakes come and the mountains crumble into
the sea.
Let the oceans roar and foam.
Let the mountains tremble as the waters surge!
A river brings joy to the city of our God,
the sacred home of the Most High.
God dwells in that city; it cannot be destroyed.
From the very break of day, God will protect it...
Be still, and know that I am God!
I will be honoured by every nation.
I will be honoured throughout the world.
The Lord of Heaven's Armies is here among us;
the God of Israel is our fortress."
Psalm 46
