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Thursday, March 29, 2007
when i do think about it, i'm left feeling hollow and empty inside with questions i may never get answers to.my breathing becomes more shallow and sometimes there are tears to blink away.wish i knew how it got like this and if it'll always be like this, but i really don't know. am i content to not know? possibly. in fact, yes, i am, though that eats at me.and so my rational self pushes it away, back to the deep recesses somewhere so that life can go on as usual. i've gotten so good at that.but sometimes it comes back to get me though i try not to let it.then i ask myself why not. figured coz i just don't have the answers and i'm not sure i want to know them now anyway.i know i'll have to deal at some point. i'm tempted to question. then i'm reminded in my moments of helplessness, cluelessness and brokenness of the assurance of Your love.You allowed it. i don't know why...but i know i'm being held on to even when things don't make sense and they aren't all that i hoped they would be. so do you go on hoping? in what? that's the question ain't it? coz that makes all the difference - where hope is placed.
and eunice ends here :
- 3:33 PM