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Friday, June 22, 2007
haha boy have i been lazy! there've been so many blog-worthy things that have gone on but i've just let them slip by me...i think coz there's no real need to get on my laptop except to check mail and even then, there's no longer pressing mail that i've gotta check since there's nothing important or pressing going on in my life. at least not for now. and it's quite a nice feeling. haha but that's somewhat the general theme of my life right now...everything's so fluid and non-important and non-consequential and yeah...i don't quite know how to put it. i love what i'm doing now and how life is...but it all seems so forgetable too. there definitely have been highlights like bunking over at mich's and having her cook me dinner, going for the Jeremy Monteiro concert, celebrating lav's bday with Chindia...or are those just the more recent things? you see??? perhaps it's coz i'm not making the effort to write about them or talk about them coz that's how i remember things. anyway, so the big question everyone's been asking me is "are you looking forward to starting work?" and the answer has gotta be yes. i know the last post sure didn't sound like it...but that was a minor moment of panic. haha i actually do crave new things and fresh starts. it excites me! yes, this extends beyond the clothes, in case you were wondering. i think it'll give my life more definition and structure than it has now and i quite want that. of course i'm gonna miss all this time i have to slack and do whatever i want...it's always like that, isn't it? you don't quite realize how much something is worth till it's taken away.guess that's something i've been learning. sometimes, only when things of the past are gotten rid of or taken away from you do you really get on with life. however, it does leave you feeling kinda sad. but i suppose that on the brighter side of things, there's always something to learn from it. i really don't believe in living with regret. it's a waste of time and energy. maybe that's why i disconnect so easily. but i'm not sure that's necessarily a good thing either.for instance, i did better than expected in my final sem but i still missed a first class...but it doesn't matter the least bit to me. i don't know why. perhaps coz grades have lost their significance to me. but that shouldn't errode how thankful i am and how much i am in awe of how lavish God has been with his blessings these 4 years. (i love how writing this reminds me of what i need to be reminded of. it's as if i'm talking to myself coz i really haven't been a fraction as grateful as i should be.)so lavish indeed. was reminded by my mom...reminded seems to tame a word actually...more like scolded. ok so i was scolded by my mom for spending too freely on things i don't need. think that i've always thought that since i've earned my own pocket money since i graduated from jc, i was free to spend it anyway i wished. and there always seemed to be enough...whether it was from teaching or giving tuition or scholarship allowance. and so i never had to account how or what i was spending on. but i think that as i look back, i've really not been a good steward of all i've been blessed with. my parents have consistently modeled what living a simple life is and i think i've just not learnt. but i really have to work on that now that i'm starting work.ironic though, how from now till i actually start work, i'm gonna be doing nothing but spending more money! work clothes, new stuff for my room......anyway, was talking to ems, my bro, and farand over supper the other night and came to the painful realization that i'll prob only get 40% or less of my salary to spend...coz the rest of it goes to cpf, insurance, savings, tithes, missions, parents, tpt, usana pills.......................so i am an adult. i need an excel sheet to get my finances in order. or rather, a financial planner, according to my supper buddies' advice. i need more discipline. i need to learn to live more simply and have a less cluttered life. boy is that gonna be hard. but talking to eric just now about how i wanna be a stayhome mom, if i ever become a mother, made me realize that i can't just want a husband who's willing to live simply so that it's possible for me to stay home. i've gotta do that too! and it doesn't happen overnight. oh mygollyme. what habits to break and make. and i've gotta stop thinking "i'll deal with that in time to come when i have to...i'll just start work for now" coz that ain't gonna work.so yeah...perhaps it's time to finally learn what "to whom much has been given, much is expected" means in practical, grounded terms.boy has this been one long rambly post that took a long time to process and write. another reason why i've not been blogging. coz i've had to be up early every morning. haha
and eunice ends here :
- 12:04 AM